THE DEEP INTIMACY ISSUE WITH GOD

More and more Christians are entering what they call “deconstruction.”  They are walking away from churches, questioning doctrines and re-examining everything they were taught.

And many believers respond with panic, anger, or condemnation.  I figured out that it isn’t rebellion like many believe.  For most, this is a cry for help.  Because they did all the things.

They attended the services.  They served on the teams.  They memorized the creeds.  They performed on the stages.  They went to the youth retreats.  They knew when to stand, when to sit, and when to raise their hands.  Even how to dance and get classes on speaking in tongues during prayer meeting.  ALL ritual & emotion.  They learned how to function and even thrive in church culture.  But the darkness inside was never brought into the light.

And when the hidden places inside us are never exposed, they don't disappear.  They grow, Unhealed, Unchallenged, And Unseen.  Eventually that inner weight demands an explanation.  So the church becomes the problem, Tradition becomes the villain and Doctrine becomes the oppressor.  But the real crisis is deeper.  This is a crisis of illumination.  The modern evangelical and ritual catholic West has trained us to believe that information leads to God.  If we learn enough, study enough, analyze everything enough, and argue accurately enough, attend enough retreats, etc…we will ultimately arrive at the truth.  But the Enlightenment shifted the Western mind away from the ancient Christian understandings.  We traded mystery for assurance.  We traded awe for analysis.  We traded communion for comprehension.  We traded intimate knowing for intellectual knowing.  But Scripture shows us a different kind of knowing.  Adam knew Eve.

That was not a mental awareness, that was Communion… an Intimate participation.

This is the kind of knowing Christ invites us into.  Not agreement and understanding. Union. Communion.  And Transformation.  When a person is illuminated by Christ, the light reaches the places they keep buried.  It exposes pride, wounds, hidden sin, false identities, attachments, and self-deception.  Nothing stays hidden.  And once that light exposes what is inside you, there is nothing left to pretend about.  Nothing left to dismantle in the dark.  Because illumination reveals everything.  Many who enter deconstruction are not trying to reject Christ.  They are reacting to a faith that never reached their interior life.  They were given information. But they were never led into illumination.

And too often, without illumination to guide them, they walk not only away from the church… but away from God.  This is why deconstruction is not something to mock.  It is something to understand. Because beneath the questions… beneath the dismantling… beneath the anger…is a deeper cry: “Show me what is real.”  Deconstruction is not the end goal.  It is a cry for illumination. And illumination does what analysis never can.  It brings the hidden into the light. It heals what knowledge cannot.  It transforms what performance could never touch.

And once the light truly enters the soul, the goal is no longer tearing down.  The goal becomes surrender.